“Forgive and forget”
I heard often growing up
From the mouth of the man
Whose blood is also mine
But what he did I won’t forgive
And only a lobotomy
Could make me forget
But I do forgive you, my friend
The guy everyone swore I’d marry
For saying things that triggered me
Before either of us knew what that meant
And I’m happy you’ve found someone else
Because I never really wanted to be with you
And I forgive you, my best friend
For leaving me behind
But I also thank you for the same
Because falling for a straight girl
Was the worst thing I could do
Last of all, I must forgive myself
For always questioning who I am
And wondering if my queerness
Is a real thing
My father, I can’t forgive you
My friends, I won’t forget you
My heart, I will learn to heed you
